I’m saying goodbye…

…to this blog.  But I’ve been working on a new blog that suits me a little better…so go check it out!

My new blog can be found here.  I am starting a new program that I am excited about so I’m sure I’ll have a bunch to say over the next few weeks.

Be sure to change my link if you have it saved someplace so you can keep up with the final stretch of my weight loss journey.  I am loving being a part of the Sisterhood and can’t wait for the next challenge!  See you on the flip side of the bloggy world!

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I’m a winner…and I never said thank you!

A few weeks back I won a prize from Shrinking Jeans on one of the Wednesday WI’s.  I got it in the mail a  few weeks ago, and never got around to posting about it.  Yippee…so excited!  never won anything from an online contest before!

I got the Lite ‘N Up: Laugh Yourself Skinny book from Plain White Press.  It is pretty witty and has made me chuckle several times since I opened the package.  It’s got places to journal and track your daily progress, but I have to admit I like the snarky phrases  and jokes in between the best.  Gives you a new outlook on some things.

My favorite is: “Inside every thin person is a fat person waiting to get out and ruin your life.”

So thank you Shrinking Jeans and Plain White Press!  I appreciate it!

Where have you been ladybug?

It’s been a crazy week, haven’t even had time to update about my weigh-in this week….which was up .4 in case you are wondering. I had a wedding and baby shower this weekend and caved to some sweets and rich foods. Sorry purple team-wish I could have posted a loss for the final weigh-in! I am soo tried and hardly have had any sleep this week. We are having plumbing issues at home, had to get the septic tank pumped $$$ and now a plumber is coming today (hopefully) to figure out why nothing is draining into the now empty septic tank (hoping he doesn’t find more problems and not too many $$$ will be handed to him). Had to go to family’s homes for showers and use a cup to brush our teeth and toss it outside…so inconvenient and annoying. Hard to sleep when you are worrying about “poo sludge” coming up thru the floor drain right? Anywho, maybe no-one has even noticed I haven’t posted anything for a while, but just wanted to let the world know I am still around, doing ok and almost losing my mind at the same time. Hope to get back on track with exercising and watching the scale go down again…once all the madness settles! I did want to thank my purple teammates, each of them dealt with their own struggles during this challenge and I think it’s a great thing that we all ended the challenge lighter than when we started. Maybe we weren’t the biggest shrinkers…but we did indeed shrink so I am proud of us for that. They are all strong and witty women who have a lot of balls in the air and children to go with them! Thanks for being a positive influence on my weight loss and bringing me a chuckle and smile from day to day!

Wednesday Weigh-In Week 6

Its Wednesday and I’m not getting any younger….so it’s time to report my weigh in for the challenge over at Sisterhood of the Shrinking Jeans I weighed in yesterday morning since I knew I would be enjoying some tasty treats for my birthday last night. I am down 1.4 lbs this week to 148.2 lbs. Glad I’m going back in the right direction again…it sucked to have to report a gain last week. This next week will be a challenge. I have rehearsal and my cousin’s wedding on Saturday that I am in so I’m sure there will be lots of temptations there. Don’t see myself getting overwhelmed by it all, will probably be nervous to make my MOH speech to eat anything! Let’s see if TEAM PURPLE can climb back up a couple of notches this week!

It’s my Birthday!!!

Today is my birthday…and it’s a bittersweet day. I lost my mother in October and the last 24 hours have been pretty emotional. She always called me on my birthday and sang happy birthday to me…I will miss that so much…among everything else I miss about her. I won’t get that call this year and it’s gonna be hard not to cry every time my cell phone rings today. But on a lighter note (definite pun intended people) I am proud to say that I have lost 41.4 lbs since my birthday last year! That’s over 165 sticks of butter, more than 8-5lb barbells and the equivalent of a 1st grader gone from the scales! I still have a ways to go to reach my final goal where I want to maintain, but I am proud to be able to say I lost 40 lbs in the last year! That’s something to be proud of. Here is a comparison from my birthday last year to this morning before heading into work. Can you tell a difference? I can…I am shrinking!!! My one wish for the next year is to learn to relax and not stress about what I can’t predict or change. To enjoy the day and every breathe that I take instead of worrying about how many I have left. To make a decision about whether or not I think I will be a great mother and if I want to spread my seed and try to have a baby (if my seeds haven’t withered up because I’m getting so old). I hope to enjoy and spend more time with all of those people in my life that bless me with their love and support more than I ever have and thank them for including me as special part of their life. I also hope to reach my weight loss goal and start running…yeah I know big goals! But if I can make it thru this last year then I can do anything! Thank you all for your support along my journey!

Uh…my snack is trying to tell me something

I guess I know it’s REALLY time to get back on track when my afternoon snack tells me what I already should have known.

Tomorrow I have a date with Jillian….it’s been too long since we’ve hung out and sweat.

Wednesday Weigh-In Week 5

Its Wednesday again already….time to weigh in for the challenge over at Sisterhood of the Shrinking Jeans

I am disgusted to say I am up to 149.6 this week…WTF!!!!  Thats 2.4 lbs up from last week.  Dropped my total loss for the challenge to 3.4 lbs….not a step in the right direction.

I didn’t work out once this week…not once single time.  Started up again on Monday and my thighs are killing me so I’m sure some of the gain is from my muscles holding whatever it is they hold when they are sore.  I splurged on some treats this weekend and only had a few beers but didn’t overdo it like I have in the past.  So I expected to see a pound or so gain….but not almost 2 and a half flippin’ pounds…that just bites the big one.

Sucks.  Sorry TEAM PURPLE! 

True Confessions Monday

Well it was a long weekend…and I need to get some things off my chest that are weighing “heavily” on me.  Thank goodness I’m not the only one, Lisa over at The Sisterhood of the Skrinking Jeans had the urge to confess too….and the masses I’m sure are thankful she started it!

So here goes…

1)  I haven’t exercised since last last Friday.  Not 3 days ago Friday…10 days ago Friday.  Started up again tonight and maybe it was just me but it seemed like my jiggle was much more jiggly than normal.  Had alot of stuff going on with work and had to get ready for the 4th and had a long week…blah blah blah.

2) I drank 3 beers on Friday night before walking a mile to watch fireworks.  That counts as exercise right?

3) Didn’t drink on the 4th of July, instead helped myself to a small piece of texas sheetcake, a cookie, a hamburger, some oriental salad and ranch pasta salad, cheesy potatoes (damn you cheesy potatoes!!!) and lots of diet Pepsi max

4) I missed my next weightloss goal. I had planned to lose 50 lbs, but on that morning I had only lost like 42ish.  Moving it out to Labor Day and praying I beat that one with time to spare.

5)  I did wear my bathing suit on the 4th, however it was too cold to get in the water.  Which I am kind of happy about because I wasn’t feeling all that hot in my striped bikini.  Even if I had met my goal, i don’t think I would have felt comfortable, I feel like I have soooo far to go.  Will I ever look like I want to in a bathing suit?  I know I should be happy that I have come so far, but this weekend and the weakness that I showed, makes me feel like I failed, even if it’s in a small way.

So that kinda sums how I am feeling on this Monday…a mixture of dissapointment and bloat.  Hope it doesn’t smack me in the face on Wednesdays weigh-in.

Wednesday Weigh-in Week 4

It’s WEDNESDAY!!!!  That means its time for the weekly weigh-in over at Shrinking Jeans, and I have been dreading this weigh-in since last week when I knew it was going to be a tough weekend filled with temptations!

I am thrilled to say I am down to 147.2 this week!  Thats 1.2 lbs lost….even with the tons of beer!  Woot-woot!  Total loss for the challenge so far is 5.8….2.2 left to get to my challenge goal!

Not much to write, ina  hurry before I head to work.  It’s month-end and closing the books in one less day than normal is keeping me sooo busy.  Good part is I have Friday off….so that’s the silver lining I am trying to focus on whether then how tired I am or how much I am working this week.

Had a party with 33 people here on Saturday, but to my credit I was very good on the food front and didn’t overeat at all.  Had 2 cookies the whole weekend, and resisted the brownies!  I did however have my share (and probably a few of yours) of beer.  Good times but I admit I did feel like crap on Sunday and spent some time in the bathroom.  Didn’t puke though, so that’s a plus!  Crazy how much my body has changed and can’t tolerate much variation anymore, must mean I have made major life changes instead of just weekday dieting!  That makes me feel good.

I only worked out twice this week, last Wednesday and Friday.  This week we have had issues with our koi pond…so that has consumed my evening after getting home from work.  We have lost 7 fish in the last week!  One to a crane and the other to something in the water I think.  Had the water tested, only thing that came back high was the alkalinity was up a touch, so got some treatment yesterday and put in another aerator to get more oxygen introduced in case that was the issue. 

Next week…hope to see another pound down.  Saturday is the day I was planning to be at the 50 lb mark….however that doesn’t seem realistic now.  But I’ll take 45!

That’s GO TEAM PURPLE!

Uh oh…it’s gonna be a tough weekend!

Well here we are at the first real challenging weekend of summer! We are having a friends 50th birthday party at our house on Saturday night. I’m trying to plan ahead and think how I am going to control myself and not go overboard on food or alcohol in order to still post a loss for next week for my purple team.

Here are my thoughts….

1)  It isn’t until 5PM. I could have a light breakfast and maybe just fruit for lunch or something…want to try to keep it under 500 calories if possible. Most of the cleaning and prep will be done tonight, so not like I will be exerting much energy getting ready for the festivities.

2)  We will be grilling out (burgers, Italian sausage and hotdogs) and people are bringing sides. Can I resist the taco dip and cheesy potatoes??? I can always have a bunless burger in order to save a few hundred calories on carbs I really don’t need anyway and stick with the baked beans and veggies.

3)  Alcohol…oh glorious alcohol! I plan on consuming some several beverages, but I am trying to think what would be the best for me to drink. Might try some MGD64 to keep the calories about half of the 110 calories BudLight sticks to me. But then I am tossing around the idea of getting some cheap vodka that I can mix with diet Sunkist soda to make some refreshing cocktails.

4)  There will be no birthday cake, but some people are bringing dessert. I just am praying it’s something I don’t like so I won’t be tempted to munch every time I walk by the kitchen. (like the no-bake cookies at the graduation party last month). Come on pies….or double chocolate cookies….I can resist you guys easily!

I guess my fear is that I am going into this weekend at the lightest weight I have been since early 2004. I am 3 lbs away from weighing what I did when we got married almost 5 years ago. I “feel” less of my body when I touch my hips and am starting to loose the first trimester pregnancy look that I seem to have had since I became an adult (even though I have never been preggers).   And now I am questioning if I am strong enough to resist some tasty refried beans topped with creamy sour cream and fancy shredded cheese on delicious golden tortilla chips Taco Dip??? Will not always having a frosty beverage in my hand while chilling with my friends make me have a horrible night? No it won’t, but my warped sense of thinking has already kind of set myself up for some sort of failure.

Does anyone else do this….it’s almost like self sabotage! I felt so good having posted a 2.6 lb loss this week and now I am preparing myself for seeing a gain next week, even before the festivities begin? I don’t think so sister!!! I am going to make sure that I am always carrying a bottle of water with me and follow the rule of having a bottle of water in between every alcoholic one that I partake in. I will not deprive myself of trying some of the tasty treats, I just will use a smaller plate so I can’t present the temptation to overeat. Gonna play some corn hole/beanbags and enjoy the company of my houseguests…that should keep my focus away from the food!

At least that’s the plan for now…ask me again on Sunday how it went!